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Single mummy, who believes we should all strive to do our best in educating ourselves in choices we make on our childrens behalfs! Worried about how much the Western society are seperating themselves from what it is to be human. Ignoring what it is to be natural and trusting ourselves, and replacing it with our inventions and thinking we can outsmart nature. This is not the future I want for my children, Annabelle 3yrs and Lucy 1yr. Most of all Im passionate to get back to basics with pregnancy, birth and breastfeeding.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Sad

:'(  2011 is empty. The world is full of saddness. It seems its been going since 09:(

So much death. Mothers loosing their children, children loosing their mothers/fathers....


I know this is life and what is meant to happen, but does it need to be so tragic?

Feeling so low about it all.......

I worry that I wont wake to see my beautiful girls again and they'll have to find a way through this life without my guidence and love.....
I hate this thought, I worry so much that I then worry my instincts are telling me it'll happen......

Years ago I didn't care if I was alive or not. Now I love my life so much I just want to hang onto it and Im so scared it'll be taken somehow:(

I lost my dad in 09 and still cant talk about it.  I pretend his on holidays, and put it to the back of my mind, just so I dont have to think about life without him:(

I know this post is a downer, but its my mood at the moment xx
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6 comments:

  1. Parenting PremmiesJanuary 15, 2011 at 11:36 PM

    {hugs}

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  2. mama tanzJanuary 26, 2011 at 9:26 PM

    i so hear you kass. Losing my mum was the hardest thing ever and if it doesnt feel hard for a moment its only because I think she's here with me. It really is so easy to get caught up in how scary death is and the thought of losing your kids is a feeling too intense too describe....i know its a cliche but.....enjoy those beautiful girls every day and try not to think about the what ifs but instead the what is. and what is for you is that you have 2 gorgeous girls and they have an amazing mum who they will learn so much from.if only i could listen to my own advice! xx

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  3. Nurturing mummyJanuary 26, 2011 at 11:36 PM

    Thanks ladies:)

    Sal and Tania- Im so thankful for wonderful ppl like you in my life, IRL or not, still in my life:)

    Tania- Are you following? I cnat see your profile?

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  4. mama tanzJanuary 27, 2011 at 7:57 PM

    thought i was kass....whoops! think i just singed up to follow then?

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  5. mama tanzJanuary 27, 2011 at 7:57 PM

    ahem...signed up.

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  6. Nurturing mummyJanuary 28, 2011 at 12:32 AM

    hahaha, good:)

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